The Collection
The Year That Brought Me To You
By Natashia Larsen
While a year of grief and hardship inspired this collection, these poems are written from the perspective of a young girl growing into an adult woman in her faith. They reflect her triumphs, her life experiences, and the deepening of her faith and love of God.
The Story Behind The Book
A year of grief and hardship gave this book its spark — but the poems themselves are written from a wider life: a young girl growing into an adult woman in her faith. They hold her triumphs, her lived experience, and the deepening of her love of God, especially through that difficult year.
Natashia began writing at night — not poems, just sentences addressed to God. Some were confessions. Some were arguments. Many were simply the words help me find my way, written again and again in slightly different handwriting.
Only later, reading them in order, did a shape appear: brokenness, searching, surrender, healing, purpose, gratitude. What had felt like drowning turned out to be a road — not only through one hard year, but through a lifetime of becoming.
“I am writing to you, and I don’t even know.”
Inside The Pages
Featured Poems
All the times I sat alone,
I knew there was something I didn't know.
I would cry and weep,
Afraid of what was ahead,
But you wiped my tears and held my head.
A little girl, so soft and broken.
So much to learn, so little spoken.
Where is life about to lead?
If only I knew you were all I would need.
You, Lord, stayed beside me as I grew.
I am blessed to have always had you.
I can't hear you, Lord,
The noise is too loud.
I am looking, Lord,
but cannot see beyond the clouds.
Tonight, when I lay to rest,
I hope to hear you;
I have so much to confess.
I am so glad I feel you.
Even if I cannot see or hear,
I just know you are there;
I just know you are near.
Hey Father, it's me again.
I'm holding a smile,
but I am dying inside.
I don't know where to begin.
I'm in so much pain, I just want to hide.
I am lost, Father, help me find my way.
I am your lost daughter;
I don't know what more to say.
Tomorrow left,
a new day is here.
I am learning you, Lord,
but still hold fear.
I am seeking you;
I can hear the faint knock.
You are right at my door;
it's up to me to unlock.
I am begging you, Lord:
Please, Father, set me free.
Scripture Reflection
In the book, each poem is followed by a photograph and the scripture that answered it.
Defeat
“If you are there, I am too numb to tell.”
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they will not overflow you.
Isaiah 43:2
Waiting to be Found
“It's hard to be proactive when you are waiting to be found.”
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7
You are God
“If only people would be still and know that you are God.”
Be still and know that I am God.
Psalm 46:10
Blessed by Children
“The love I have for them is one in a million.”
He grants the barren woman a home, like a joyful mother of children. Praise the Lord.
Psalm 113:9
